Have you ever done something that completely shocked yourself? Well the other day I had one of those moments. I started yelling at a man at a restaurant. The man that was intending to pay for the food. I just let lose. Not one of my more graceful or beautiful moments. But it was indeed honest. He got an earful of exactly what I thought. Rather forcefully. It seemed I had harbored some rather strong emotions and feelings. It was the perfect storm to stir them up.
My initial feeling after the event was, I feel so much better. I held my head high as I tried rather unsuccessfully to slowly leave the restaurant. Then over the course of several days I started to realization how little self control and restraint I had shown. The fact that I did the very opposite of acting as a gentle/quiet spirit. As I realized these things the feeling of shame started to slowly creep up on me. Whoops!
“Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” 2 Corinthians 12:8-9 NIV
No person is without fault or struggle. We all have areas that challenge us. Areas our flesh surfaces. We all need for the grace of Jesus to cover those imperfections. But as I battled with a sense of shame over my outburst I realized that this too is not from the Lord. I have to learn to control these outburst with the help of the Lord but the shame or fear of failing should not keep me from moving forward and working for Gods kingdom. That through walking forward despite my struggle is an opportunity for Christ’s power to rest on me and be revealed. That none would say look at her but all would say look at Christ.
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