Has anyone ever felt utter destitution? We often think of destitution in a physical sense. Someone that lacks all physical means for life and survival. So in many ways I have never myself been in complete destitution. I have never been a wealthy person myself but for most all of my life I have had the physical means for my survival. One of the most heartbreaking things to see in our world is people that are indeed destitute. Due to our current economic situation there are many who find themselves lacking and in need. Furthermore having visited other countries where poverty is rampant the signs of destitution are everywhere. I have to admit it is overwhelming. For as one person I feel helpless to do anything for these people. Yet I hurt for them.
But I myself have experience a different kind of destitution. As someone that has had repetitive deep depressive episodes for as long as I can remember, I often feel destitute, hopeless, empty and like God’s presence is absent. In these times I am unable to do the tasks I once did, I am unable to accomplish the things I wish, I cannot seem to make my mind or body function, yet I am so tired that I cannot motivate myself to even try. The darkness seems all consuming. You stare at the wall wishing and hoping you will find your way out of this imaginary hole. But there is no escape. You cry to God and you plead to Jesus but your cry’s appear to be unheard.
“I will sing for the one I love a song about his vineyard: My loved one had a vineyard on a fertile hillside. He dug it up and cleared it of stones and planted it with the choicest vines. He built a watchtower in it and cut out a winepress as well. Then he looked for a crop of good grapes, but it yielded only bad fruit. “Now you dwellers in Jerusalem and people of Judah, judge between me and my vineyard. What more could have been done for my vineyard than I have done for it? When I looked for good grapes, why did it yield only bad? Now I will tell you what I am going to do to my vineyard: I will take away its hedge, and it will be destroyed; I will break down its wall, and it will be trampled. I will make it a wasteland, neither pruned nor cultivated, and briers and thorns will grow there. I will command the clouds not to rain on it.” Isaiah 5:1-6
When I read this passage in Isaiah I feel like this has happened and is happening in the lives of many others. The result is destruction and wasteland. The loss, the destruction and the destitution. There are many in today’s world experiencing this but it does not end with destitution. There is very real hope. The darkness may last for a night but joy comes in the morning. For Jesus is the light unto our path.
“When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, ‘I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.’” –John 8:12
Wherever you find yourself. No matter what hole you feel like you cannot escape. No matter what darkness you battle. Jesus is the light to your darkness. So wherever you find yourself today, seek Jesus, look to Jesus, take his hand and follow him. Sing praise and worship. Live, love, serve and worship Jesus our King. Fellowship with others that are also seeking Jesus and walking with him. For where two more gather in he name of Jesus he promises to be among them. He will guide you and lead you through the destitution.