Have you ever been in a high emotional situation or in pain and had someone come up to you and ask “are you alright?” My mother has a tendency to snap back in anger, I am known to do the same. I give a glare that says touch me and you will die. The look is much better than the words that might accident sneak out. That look means I need alone time With Jesus. For I am clearly not alright so why the hell are you asking me that in the first place!!!!
As someone that suffers from intense emotions at times I have had to learn coping mechanism through professional counseling to deal with these emotions. Similarly medications help take the edge off. When I was younger I often thought that the source of my emotional discomfort or inability to control my emotions was a result of me “not being alright with God.” Thus my suffering must be due to something I am doing wrong or God must be punishing me. Instead of seeing my internal state as the result of a neurological illness I had little control over I saw it as a reflection of my relationship with God not being on “good” enough terms.
Now as a adult who more thoroughly understands my neurological condition and how to cope with my emotions I have realized that I can “be alright with God,” yet not feel alright inside. For being right with God is completely separate issue. This has brought the question of what does it mean to be right with God and how do we do it.
“Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord, and that he may send the Messiah, who has been appointed for you—even Jesus.” Acts 3:19-20
We become right with God through repentance of our sins and acceptance of Jesus as the means of our forgiveness of sins. It is only through the blood of Jesus that we can be right with God.
I have had to realize that I can very much be right with God but not alright neurologically. Thus my emotional state may be reflecting my neurological condition and not my relationship with Jesus. Are you “alright with God?”