During medical school I started writing a daily devotional for people with bipolar disorder and chronic mental illness. I have been slowly working on it the last couple of months in hopes to one day potentially publishing, God willing. I decided the share the final entry.
Father when I stop long enough to think about all the bad things I have done while sick or even when I am well, I am reminded of how much I do not deserve you. For you are the almighty fully just God. I do not deserve eternity in heaven for I am so far from perfect. But this is the beauty. Your grace and forgiveness do not require anything except my willingness to be present with you. For all I have to do to say, “Yes God, I am willing.” You do all the rest. Your forgiveness is free. Your grace is free. My salvation is free. I cannot earn it. There is nothing I can do other than say yes God. This is the key, this is the miracle. That no matter the state of my mental health. No matter what situation I find myself in. No matter what I face, all I have to do is go to you God. For you are my heavenly father. You will lead me. You will guide me. And one day I will be with you in eternity. For it is not the perfect person that gets to be in heaven with you, it is the sinner who comes to you humbly and says yes Lord, I am willing to be yours. Amen
“I, Jesus, have sent my angel to give you this testimony for the churches. I am the Root and the Offspring of David, and the bright Morning Star.” The Spirit and the bride say, “Come!” And let the one who hears say, “Come!” Let the one who is thirsty come; and let the one who wishes take the free gift of the water of life.” Revelations 22:16-17
“Thomas said to him, “Lord, we don’t know where you are going, so how can we know the way?” Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. If you really know me, you will know my Father as well. From now on, you do know him and have seen him.”Philip said, “Lord, show us the Father and that will be enough for us.” Jesus answered: “Don’t you know me, Philip, even after I have been among you such a long time? Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, ‘Show us the Father’? Don’t you believe that I am in the Father, and that the Father is in me? The words I say to you I do not speak on my own authority. Rather, it is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work. Believe me when I say that I am in the Father and the Father is in me; or at least believe on the evidence of the works themselves. Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.” John14:5-13